As I hopped into bed last night, I thought about my word for 2020: streamline. I chose that word because "I knew that my focus for the new year had to be quality over quantity. To take on less projects but ones with more value that really speak to me. To find more efficient ways to get things done faster while still being true to my standards."
Then covid19 hit and all my plans were cancelled or postponed! Talk about the universe giving me what I wanted: you want less projects? HERE YOU GO!
I am bummed that my events have been postponed but I also realize that it was actually a good thing. I was ready for a few projects but also a little overwhelmed.
Anyways, we're going on a month at home and it occurred to me that my discipline sucks. I'm not being harsh on myself, I'm all for giving myself grace. But I think maybe I give myself too much grace. I will literally stop what I am doing to go nap because I'm just too tired (I'm never tired enough that I can't finish writing an email...common girl).
Last night I played a game on my phone for three hours and I didn't even notice the three hours had passed. The day before I did the same. Now don't get me wrong, the game was fun and brought me joy. But when I was done playing, I also thought, I could have played the game, read, and worked on a personal project that would have filled my soul and made me happier than this game.
So last night while I was loathing myself for going to bed so late because I was addicted to a video game, it dawned on me that I really aught to change my word for 2020 to DISCIPLINE. It's like we're in a wrinkle in time where the universe is giving us all the time we want to get those projects we've always wanted to get done and somehow we're not doing them. I have been doing a lot to be honest. I have a million projects on the go. But the things I dream about the most are the ones I have been skirting around because they require me to dig deep and it's much more satisfying to tick the easier back-burner jobs and goals off my list.
Today I woke up rejuvinated and on a mission to not waste this precious time. I can't change the situation we're all in and stressing about it isn't going to get me anywhere. Might as well put my energy into finding the discipline I need to get successfully get things done!
How are you coping with your new covid19 normal?